Another yay about my insecurity and feeling completely destroyed.
Yay for having nothing to do with my life. Having nothing to do at all. Not being able to work or to do anything at all.
Yay for friends leaving me and throwing their shit in me.
Yay for people saying rude shit to me because i’m “insecure, bad person and disrespectful.” You saying that i’m a freak is secure and good as fuck.
Oh my god i want to disappear so much. But i can’t and that’s even more depressing. I don’t have a reason to exist. I don’t have a… reason to live. A point in my life.
I guess i’m just going to watch anime and tv series and playing games untill i rot.
It’s sad that my family had such a hopes in me. Sorry for not being able to fulfill them.
I’m a failure.
I’m almost done with EMT school, and I can verify this 100%. We don’t give a shit what you’ve taken or how illegal it may be. We want to know what and how much so we can save your ass. Unless its directly related to a crime scene in some way, we don’t tell.
It makes me enraged and also deeply saddened that the police state has become so entwined with every aspect of our lives that people are afraid to tell the truth to people trying to render them with emergency care. We’ve broken ourselves.
Boost because everyone should know!!!